About

I’m a Shamanic Reiki Master Teacher, Intuitive Psychic Medium and Crystal Healer. I’m certified in Reiki I, Reiki II and received my Master Teacher Certification in May 2017.

About me…Starting around the age of 20 I began to develop severe back pain. In my early 30’s, in 2004 and 2006 I had two spinal fusions for a Pars Defect leaving me in more pain than before the surgeries. I had 3 young kids, my youngest only being a year old at the time of my first surgery. You can imagine the guilt and emotional pain not being able to care for your kids. Not being able to play with them, pick them up or just hold them the way a mom should. That most definitely took a toll on me although I didn’t realize it at the time.

I spent years in and out of physical therapy trying to rehabilitate my back. My neck had developed cervical stenoisis and I had the pleasure of having my rounds with Fibromyalgia. Pain medications didn’t do anything for the pain. All they were was a mask for the pain, and made me feel more like shit than I already felt.

One day I decided enough was enough and decided to wean myself off all the pain medications. It wasn’t easy but I survived, as we all do. A few days after weaning off the pain medications I called my doctor and talked to him about the pain I was in. He suggested another doctor who offered a guided meditation group for chronic pain. I thought why not, don’t know anything about meditation but I’ll go.

So I guess I can say that was my ahhhhh haaaaa moment, when my life began to shift. I kept up with the guided meditation classes for a couple of months and learned a bit about holistic health, which was also new to me.

In 2012 my mother in law passed away from Pancreatic Cancer. She didn’t want to go into hospice so I stayed at her house to help care for her. I was there almost every day for a couple of months with the exception of coming home to get a change of clothes and a few weekends off. So to my surprise she passed away when I left the house for a couple of minutes to go check on my kids. I was shocked and actually pissed. How could she do that? Over time I thought about it and I know how much she adored her grandkids, I was meant to be with them when she passed.

At her funeral it was the first time I felt spirit touch me. I was standing about 5 feet away from her casket and felt her rub the top of my back like she always did. Not registering that I was at her funeral, that she was gone, just knowing her touch, knowing it was her I turned around to smile at her and was in disbelief. I stood there looking around trying to make sense of it. I even asked my husband and brother in law if they did it but nope.

From there my Psychic abilities grew. I had spirit tucking me in bed at night. Sitting on the edge on my bed. One night I felt spirit sitting next to me and saw a butt imprint on the bedding. Spirit was touching my back, which felt like static. They loved to play with my hair. That kind of felt like bugs crawling or tingling. At times it actually felt like strands of my hair was moving and it scared the shit out of me. So my way to cope with it at the time was to put a hat on. Well, that didn’t work. Spirits energy can move through a hat. I was afraid to go to sleep at night because it seemed at night was when they were most active. It took about a year to get used to spirit touching me. By then I began to develop new abilities/gifts. I started to hear spirit and see auras. Visions started happening more and more often. I felt pain or saw an injury in a family member days before it occured. So I needed something to help me understand what was happening and how to control it.

Through a family member I was introduced to a friend who I consider my first mentor. He hosted an event about spirits and understanding them so I attended that. I left there with some of the missing pieces of the puzzle and wanted to learn more. That lead me back to meditation.

Funny you think meditation should always be relaxing, right? Wrong! It takes time. It takes patience, patience with yourself. The more I meditated the better I got at it and the more relaxed I became. But then this thing happened called healing, lol. I realized I was holding on to years and years of baggage going way back to my childhood. Who wants to hold on to childhood trauma, emotional and phyiscal abuse/scars, guilt, fear, embarrassment, I know I sure didn’t.

So I would meditate and allow my higher self to take over and man did it take over. I released tear after tear but still felt I needed more healing. Like how much shit is going to come to the surface before I feel better?! And how much is buried in my soul that is going to keep coming to surface?

Past lives…Yep, my past lives began to surface. One in particular comes around more than the others but each life seems to coinside to some degree with this life. My connection with my guides grew stronger through my past live memories emerging. I began to understand myself in a different light, have a little more compassion for myself. Whether past life or this life each and every experience, good and bad, has made me who I am today.

With a smile on my face as I’m typing this…My path then lead me to Reiki! My mentor at the time introduced me to Reiki  and did a session on me. The Reiki Healing amazed me! I was blown away by how I felt afterwards and contiued to feel. The Reiki flow was powerful, something I’ve never felt and knew right then I wanted to learn more. I had a couple of sessions with him and from there I began to read and study about Reiki.

Not too long after that I met one of my very dear friends who is my mentor now in every way. It’s something how the universe will guide you to the right people at the perfect time. She had me do mirror work, which is looking at yourself in the mirror every day and complimenting yourself, telling yourself… I love you and say it until you are sincere. I did onion peeling, peeling back one layer at time and then peeling back the next layer. Tools I still use. Then proceeded to get my Reiki Certifications.

The more I practiced Reiki healing I began to work with crystals and spirit helped open the gateway to Shamanism. I feel that Shamanism is something I was born with. I have Native American blood from my grandpa. But I also believe you don’t have to be born with it. Anyone can be a healer at any point in thier life.

My grandma on my mom’s side was a Psychic. She never talked about being a Psychic to me when she was alive. She would just always say…Oh, I knew you were coming down to visit today. And I’d be like how’d you know that? She say…Oh, I just did. lol. Now that she crossed over she’s nugged me in the butt more times than I can say, to step outside my comfort zone, step through the door and be me, my true self. She’s guiding me and helping me to understand these gifts at times when they seem confusing.

My grandma on my dad’s side did egg readings. I remember when I was maybe in middle school seeing her crack and egg into a tea cup and watch it. She never told me then what she was doing. A couple of years ago her spirit told me about the egg readings and wanted me to pass the message along to my dad. He pretty much just looked at me in daze for a minute, he had forgotten about her egg readings until I passed the message from her.

Let’s talk about journaling for a minute, or what I like to call free therapy.  Journaling is such a healthy outlet. You really can discover yourself through writing. You can look back and see where you were a week, a month, a year ago and see if you made progress  and if not, time to step it up. Just think one day you could leave all these journals behind for your family to read. Like a treasure chest inside your mind. They’ll be like… Oh she was crazier than I thought she was. lol.

In August 2019 I had a full hysterectomy for Borderline Ovarian Cancer. Probably the most scared I’ve ever been but rarely admit it. What are you gonna do? You have cancer, you do what you have to to get rid of it and move on. That’s literally what I did. Had the surgery came home to two puppies and tried to act as though it never happened. Well let me tell you it doesn’t work like that. You have to allow what ever emotions are in place to flow through. If you supress the emotions, hold on to negative or dense energy it will manifest in a physical form at some point. Being a Reiki Healer I knew that but was stubborn. I didn’t want anyone to see me fragile. That rooted back to the way I was raised, not being able to show emotions.

So December rolls around which is my birthday month and I developed a Papilloma in my left breast. I decided to be proactive and have it removed since breast cancer runs extremely high in my family. For a little Papilloma it required a partical mastectomy. In all, I had two procedures and two surgeries in less than a week on one breast. I was a little bruised and a little tender to say the least.

To manage the pain I took a couple pain pills and broke them in half, then decided not to take anymore. I wanted to put my work to the test. I used Crystal Healing, Self Reiki, meditation and ice for the pain. I used Smokey Quartz, to help ground me, to help draw out pain and dense energy. Rose Quartz was another stone I used for it’s loving calming energy. Amethyst to help with the stress. And Bloodstone, for grounding, cleansing and purifying. The Bloodstone and a Negative Ion Pendant helped with the issues I was having from the anesthesia. Oh, and sage! Can’t forget sage! I still had pain but why take a pill if you don’t have to. The main thing was shifting my awareness. I could have focused all my awareness on the pain  but practiced shifting my awareness to other emotions. You have the choice to live in pain, to dwell, or feel sorry for yourself, or to look around you and count your blessings. When you live in gratitude the awareness will shift, the choice is yours.

I healed physically and emotionally. I was gentle with myself. I changed my life style. I changed the way I eat, what I drink. I started working out, really working out, made it part of my daily routine. Mind, body and spirit needs to be balanced. Started detaching/releasing from what no longer served me, started setting boundaries, started purging throughout the house (years and years of shit), started to be selfish and put myself first again.

Life is short, the journey may seem long at times but when we look back it’s a blink of an eye. Why waste that time being anything less than happy? Be you, who cares what people think, I know I don’t. Shine your light and shine it bright, your tribe will find you!